talk is cheap because do is expensive
okay, I’m finally feeling something! swarms of butterflies in my belly. phew. what a sensation! HERE GOES NOTHING
i embark on my adventure tomorrow. first stop Seattle via bus. long flight (layover in Philadelphia) to Barcelona. long layover in the city. another plane, another bus, then i arrive at my home for the next month : Marbella, Spain. it still has yet to sink in. my belongings have yet to be packed, though they’re organized neatly, waiting to nestle in to my suitcase. my thoughts are another story, though. those scoundrels have tucked themselves away into some nook of my brain that i can’t reach. i don’t feel anything right now. i haven’t for the past couple weeks. i assume i’m supposed to feel fear. or excitement. but i don’t feel a single thing. i hope this lack of feeling doesn’t manifest itself into a meltdown at the airport. ah! that would make for a funny story, though.
who knows what will happen? the freedom to expect nothing or everything or both may be why i’m absent of emotions. the calm is kind of nice.
oh hello sugar plum